I'm not usually one for New Year's resolutions, but this year I have a small list of things I would like to work on in 2013.
In no particular order:
1. Focus more on friends and family
I sometimes let my asshole pucker a little too tight and put all of my energy into work and finances, rather than try to maintain a balance. I need to remind myself that not everything needs to be stressful??
On that note...
2. Work on my anxiety
I am like hella anxious, and I always have been. I think I need to really start cracking down and getting my introspection on beccaaauuse there are some things from my childhood I still need to get past oops!!!
My own insecurities have been a fascinating topic to me recently so probably expect art based around those in the next little while.
3. Don't be such a shitty vegan
I've only been doing it for about two months but I feel really great when I don't regularly cheat on my meal plan. I have more energy and I feel as though I can focus more easily, which is a miracle considering I have horrible ADD wow
4. Actually draw something once in a while
This includes working on projects, collaborations and adding to my portfolio. I feel like I let a lot of people down in 2012 because I couldn't focus for most of the year ( see: Resolution #3 ). Instead of sitting around waiting for motivation, I'm going to motivate myself.
2012 was a good year for me. A lot of unexpected things happened that really just slapped me in the face, which I really needed. I was too deeply embedded in my comfort zone and I expected far too much stability for the routes I chose to take ( summer of 2012 comes to mind especially ).
I lost a fair amount of friends and family members this year.
Some due to conflict. Looking back, they were only bringing negativity to my life and I made more progress without them than I would have if I fought to stay in a toxic relationship with these people.
Some due to the natural order of things. Most of my experiences involving death have been from... another perspective. But before 2012, never had I watched a person - a person I care for deeply and was close to - leave us.
I also formed some great relationships, built upon old relationships and rebuilt bridges that, for the most part, had been burned down.
I met the love of my life. Many of my old friends helped me through a lot, and I love them all. And for the first time in years, I feel like I have a family again.
I grew up this year. I was greatly humbled. And I look forward to 2013.